About Me

Alberta, Canada
What's My Deal? - - - There is so much to say, but I will give you the basics in regards to this blog. I am a Canadian 20 something woman married to a wonderful man, and we are the parents to our wondeful son who was born in the fall of 2010. As you will read, I am a supporter of breastfeeding, baby wearing, co-sleeping, cloth diapering, and so much more, but mostly learning about babies! Oh, and I also love reading blogs and playing jigsaw online!!! I blog to share things that I have learned, read, heard and experienced.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

deal with my being different...and pissed off-ish-ness!

new look to my blog....sans capitals!!!  i am writing more like i do in personal emails, so the thoughts might be more random, graphic, rude and grammatically incorrect!

i feel much different this week than i did last week.
i don't know if the baby is moving differently or if perhaps i am having braxton hicks contractions.  which according to alan...don't exist.  neither do fetal hiccups.  remember, i know nothing, and make up almost everything i think or say.  hahaha  wasn't he overhearing the trash woman talk at the clinic about hiccups?  sometimes trash women actually know stuff as well, not just his beautiful amazing wife!!!

zoe comes this weekend, i can't wait.  we plan on going to the market, going to thyme, and eating fresh fruits and veg.  that's the plan thus far! 

we met with the doula the other night, and we really like her.  i think she will be great to have there at the hospital and at home beforehand if time allows.  she asked us both millions of questions, and i cried the most part of the sessions.  just little tears though, not actually sobbing.  she probably thinks i am completely insane, and if that's the case, her thoughts aren't too far off!  haha

i signed us up for pre-natal classes.....kinda!!!  a few people have recommended that i read the book "hypnobirthing" as it helped their labour immensely.  so, i read some reviews on it (apparently, that's not the same as reading the book), and talked about it with my doula. she said that there are classes as well on it.  so, the other night, i signed us up.  i wonder now if i made a huge mistake!!!  here is the class description :

Practicing Hypnobirthing® will improve your body's ability to have its perfect birth "
Your body, without any fear, will give birth without excessive pain. Fear present during birth causes tension in the body, which deprives the uterine muscles of oxygen and causes a tightening of the muscles that close the cervix. Dr. Grantly Dick-Read, an obstetrician in the 20th Century, coined this process as the 'fear-tension-pain' syndrome typical of modern childbirth. This 'fear-tension-pain' process is unnecessary and is not your bodies natural way to give birth.
HypnoBirthing® teaches women techniques to deal with their fears and stop the 'fear-tension-pain' cycle by training the body to release tension. Unnecessary pain is avoided and birth is experienced in a relaxed and natural way.

Hypnobirthing® is a full child birth education class and as such, we cover all topics necessary to help you through your pregnancy, labour and postpartum times.
Some topics that we will be covering include:

- What Happened to Birth?
- Your Changing Body
- Preparing your Body & Mind for Birth
- Fear Release & Birthing Affirmations
- Pre-birth Parenting
- Selecting your Caregivers & Birthing Environment
- Your Body: Perfectly Designed for Birth
- Techniques for Achieving Your Gentle & Relaxed Birth
- Breastfeeding
- Postpartum Needs & Care
- Community Resources & Support

in theory it sounds like it will be very informative, and help me to release my fears of a human being removed from my body through my crotch, but i also fear that it might be a little bit new age.  i really hope that both alan and i enjoy it, and don't drive home sunday thinking we wasted so much money and have to endure another 5 weeks of it.  its on sundays from 6pm until 8pm for 6 weeks i think.  as long as there isn't a huge focus on meditation, etc, then all should be good!  and because our doula is a huge supporter of hypnobirthing, then it will be even more beneficial!

monday night, we pretty much bought a car, and then unbought a car.  we backed out at the last minute.  i really didn't feel right about it.  and we got sucked into the standard routine from a used car salesman. 
there were times when i could barely breathe, i felt so much stress, and i could feel my son was stressed out as well!!!!  it wasn't good.  i was all tight and tense and couldn't focus on anything.  i can't imagine being one of those unfortunate people who are always stressed out.
he (used car douche) even mentioned several times about his lung cancer he has had twice.  okay seriously, i don't care.  for several reasons....a) i SAW you smoking, you later denied you were smoking (liar) b) we don't know you, c) you are so wormy and d) your perv stash is freaking me out.  that's right alex!  fuck you!!!!!  he really pissed me off yesterday when i called him to say we weren't going through with it.  well, minutes after i hung up, he called alan.  did he not see during our meeting, that i am the more dominate one when it comes to negotiating deals, deciding things, etc.  why talk to alan?  "alex" should have known alan would say he would call me to discuss. 
when alan told me about this, i freaked out, and instantly called alex and nicely gave him a piece of my mind.  he then said to me that he only called alan to let him know that he was calling him for a reason??  wtf??? do we look stupid?  clearly we aren't because we didn't take the crap deal he was willing to offer us!n  so ya, it's official, i hate alex the used car salesman!

3 other people are pissing me off now too.  2 i can ignore, 1 i cannot.  i fear i will loose it on the one i can't ignore.  the other 2, well, frankly, i don't even know why i'm so irritated by them, after all, things haven't changed, just always stayed the same between them and i.  why is everyone pissing me off????
whatever.  everything seems to irritate me these days, so i am deciding it is purely pregnancy related, and i have the right to be pissed off and irritated at people.  but, i warn you all, tread lightly because i am a volcano waiting to erupt, and throw and puke on, scalding hot lava, with precise accuracy and distance!

and to top it off, while driving to work this am, i was puking into a bag...while driving.  sometimes, i just can't pull over when necessary! 

here is a fuzzy bad quality pic of my cat who also looks somewhat pissed off and doesn't care what we think, he is laying in the stove because he loves to. deal with it!!!

have a good day y'all., from lewis and myself!


  1. I love this post. It's very you. I hope my not telling you the sex of the baby didn't make me one of those people who've pissed you off. If it makes you feel any better I wouldn't tell mom either.
    I do love this post though.

  2. That's funny, I am glad you liked my post. See what no capitals can do to me! And no, you aren't one of the people pissing me off. I know you want to keep a secret, or are forced to. It took me forever to tell some people I was pregnant, and now people are going mental about wanting to know the name!

  3. Mom tried to get it our of me today. She thinks she knows what we are having and I told her about your plans to get me to tell you. I tild her that you asked how much it would cost you to find out. I then told her that I had said to Todd that it would cost your babies name. Then you suggested that, so that went out the window. She tried rubbing it in that she knew the name and I didn't. She's funny eh.

  4. hey randi!
    sorry ppl are pissing you off.. that royally sucks lady. some people are just crap bags.
    douchey car sales man is lucky you didn't castrate him... really.. who actively tries to piss off a pregnant woman!? stupid stupid man!
    glad you chewed him out though, you are much better at confronting people than i am, a trait you should be proud of i say!
    hope things get better for you soon :)
    sarah bids

  5. Um...am I on that list!?
    Sounds like you made the right choice about the car, and I agree with Sarah - could he not pick up on the fact that you would NOT be handling his bs?!
    I think the class sounds great...but maybe a little long. I'm not sure I would ever be able to convince Matt to sacrifice his last few hours of freedom on a Sunday for a class! lol Hopefully you'll get to watch a birthing video - I loved watching Matt's face as the placenta was born! lol

  6. That stinks about people bothering you. In hindsight, the people who really bothered me in the last few months of my pregnancy with Ella turned out to be more me being impatient and cranky and sensitive to annoyances. Being in the same place now, I find the same thing happening. Many days I don't want to be around people AT ALL.
    I hope you feel better soon or that you can at least avoid these people!

    I hope you enjoy the hypnobirthing course! I wanted to take one so much! but they are really expensive around here, too much for us unfortunately. I have never read a review, or heard about anyone who tried it and didn't find it enjoyable and helpful. Let me know how it goes!

    And i agree that it sounds like you did best to avoid that car jerk. You don't need that kind of stress!

    Everyone tried to get our name from us repeatedly and I am still very, very, glad that we kept it special just for us until our daughter was born. So, stick to your guns and as with everything during pregnancy and bringing up your child...follow your instinct about what you think is best for you, your child, your family.

    You look amazing and I hope you are enjoying getting to know your little boy!